Sometimes it’s hard not to see God’s hand in life.
Today would be Chloe’s due date, 3 weeks ago yesterday my mom died. The only thing she wanted for so long was a grandchild, and for our anniversary Tim and I told them all we were pregnant. At the time she was doing great.
Chloe came early because I had pre eclampsia and HELLP syndrome. I was only getting worse, and when my platelets dropped to 117 they induced me. After 2 days of labor, and pushing for over an hour I gave up, I couldn’t get her past my tail bone. So we ended it in a section.
4 days later I went home and at 6 days the little 34 weeker was discharged from the NICU.
When Chloe was 11 days old we found out my mom only had days to live, and with the Doctor’s assurances at the hospital we brought Chloe to see her. She held her and got to see her first grandchild. Less than a week later my mom passed away.
I find it hard not to believe that that is why Clo came so early and was so healthy.
So my blood pressure won’t stay normal, so they’re shipping me to Baton Rogue tonight.
I freaked out at first, but now I’m okay.
They’re just looking to stabilize me and my vitals, but if they need to take her right away it’s the best place.
Bleh. Pre Eclampsia blows.
I’m here indefinitely.
Protein test came back obscenely high.
They’re giving me steroids to help her lungs develop incase something needs to be done.
I’m pretty terrified. And Tim’s mom was far from helping earlier.
I snapped and told her to either stop or leave.
Bleh.
However, bp is good.
Is there a reasonably priced breast pump anyone out there recommends?
Hahaha one of the ladies at work was going on and on being creepy talking about how magical it is to be growing this amazing life, blah blah creepy blah.
I just bluntly said, “I think it’s just weird”.
I mean, I like that it lets me know she’s okay, but other than that THERE IS A HUMAN KICKING ME ON THE INSIDE
(Source: imalikkleteapot)
Does anyone drool while sleeping now that they’re pregnant!? I’m so tired of waking with a wet pillow, and I never had this problem before….
Pregnant lady issues. Gah.
Everything with Chloe looks amazing, yay! She’s kicking away and weighs about 2.5 lbs right now! Growing girl.
I, however, have more protein in my urine than I should (but not much). And you know what that means? I didn’t either, not till today! It means I got to take home this AWESOME 2 liter like jug that is an amazing shade of orange, and pee in it for a full 24 hours.
My Dr. didn’t tell me exactly what it could mean though, so to the Google I went! Bad idea, as always.
It could be pre eclampsia, though that has more symptoms than just the one I was showing. Most often accompanied by high blood pressure (mine was amazing today, and that is something I’m more than proud of with the amount of stress I’ve been going through! Yay nerves of steel!) Headaches (only when I succumb to the stress) Strobe light like things in my vision (nopeee) vomiting (that one is actually going away FINALLY. Screw you morning sickness.) and swelling… I did have swelling. BUT I worked a FULL 9 hour shift yesterday and was on my feet the WHOLE TIME. And then today, when I woke up, my hand was hanging off the bed having cause it to swell significantly. It’s still not down the whole way, though my other hand is normal. Ah well. I’ll just look weird with 2 different sized hands.
So, hopefully it’s nothing, and I’ll continue to drink plenty of water and lemon to help my kidneys with their job.
Tim’s mom absolutely HATES this idea and has made it known more than once. But it’s something I really like the idea of.
People usually bring diapers or wipes to things like a baby shower anyway, so making it something fun like a raffle just makes it better.
Her whole family just started getting the invitations and apparently they all love this idea and think it’s super neat. Take that!
I’m also stocking up on plenty of gifts for it, so that there are more than one winners. Plus I’m going to make 2 5x7 fleur de lis (after we move) and give those away too. I like the idea of giving back as much as I can, you know?
I know close to NOTHING about babies, or their feeding habits.
So I’m wondering what type of bottles I should buy. I really like glass bottles, but is there a specification or something I should stick to with newborns?
I’m so confused. Help?
(also, I plan on breastfeeding, but pumping at times I’m sure… Who knows. I guess I’ll wing it for the most part…)
Married to a Musician. 
